MoonlitWinds

I remember playing many games I forget you were not around for a few years I remember playing baseball I forget you couldn't play outside for too long I remember the teddy bear you bought me I forget it was because you weren't home I remember you being emotionally strong I forget how you were without medication I remember all my toys I forget how little money we had I remember getting money for grades I forget why i had to be perfect I remember being close to family I forget that they don't care anymore I remember the day you died I forget that you had to..

you are supposed to be an example be the person to show me how to live how can i learn from you? it seems like your better then again you fall you act like an asshole treat me like a failure i try to please you make my life better you push me down make me feel like nothing you shame me i dont want to be like you i want to be better than you if you taught me anything your lesson has been dont be me i want a better life for myself than to be stuck here with you i dont want to fail i dont want to be a disappointment i refuse to continue on your road of destruction i refuse to play your roller coaster games i'm sick of cr

To afraid to say the random things my mind wants to say don't want to feel safe cause things are not without worry between unknown factors and future wantings its hard to not be afraid In the loving arms that hold me at night the heartbeat that eases my restless mind i don't want to be afraid i know there i am safe but when i awaken my mind starts this circle again

Tears don't come easy not for me mine are on the inside painful feelings shall they always be must i be the one on the outside looking in My son and my wife don't know me for if so they hold me the touch i need, ever so clean; the closeness we need without any fear the heart is so funny it takes alot to break with so little to make it feel great My family is broken but not for so long when we get the token then we'll have the song Its been many years i've sat alone why is it now my love is just gone? My love for my work just isnt there my love for my family will always be there Jimmy i feel pain for I cry for him my way

I saw the sun come up again another long dead ended day nothing to do but get well get well from what? I am scared stiff I know not a soul here but the sun comes up then it goes down again We get new faces everyday just like the sunset looks different people get visitors including young ladies where's mine?

Is it like the wolf which chases the chick or is it the other way for right now i feel like the little chick always trying to run away I am told one thing but i find out other things which is it that i must believe i think she cries and kills with any kind of lie Who am i to pass judgement For i'm not God But i cannot cry for I am I and you are you Hopefully you may say i'm sorry but please don't cry

Wake up call was much to bright Especially for that kind of sight Right hand is coming near What is this that I fear? My head is starting to pound Just as before it does pound and pound Why is this feeling of fear so strong? Is there something I've done wrong? Wrong is something unable to be defined But my love is very defined Holding one so close and tight Helps to stop this fight Wake up call was much to bright Especially for that kind of sight

When I first met you I knew you were different My whole world changed With just a hello In the instant I met you I wanted to hug you Now I am lucky enough to hug you all I want In my whole life I never thought I could find Someone as amazing as you When we are together everything is perfect Your touch makes everything better Your kiss makes me feel whole Every second we are together almost feels like a dream I never want to lose you I never believed in love at first sight Never thought I could love someone so much You changed that in just one glance When we are apart you remain on my mind And in my heart where you always wil

Cloudy summer day brought sad news of your passing away you were tired and needed more than rest medicine couldn't fix exhausted lungs i knew before it happened i felt something was off i couldn't sleep i wanted to leave leaving wouldn't have changed this it was your time to go be with my dad your time to relax your work is finally through you lived a good life and made my grandma happy took care of her children and gave her my uncle what more could be asked? I'll always love you Tell my dad I say hello I'm sorry you had to go I will miss you I wish you had more time to take me all the places you wanted alas they ha

An unfinished chapter in an infinite book was left unattended in fear it was damned left words unspoken and feelings unheard leaving lots of regret and plenty of hurt the heart which refused to complete that chapter found the consequences so horrible it shattered Used fake smiles of happy to hide tears of dispare though inside the wanting and need were still there Through the anguish and suffering comes the strength to rebuild and finish that chapter the book is never finished but this chapter is ready to end heartaches are not over but as the saying says as one chapter closes another begins

Grey Clouds Sleep deprived feeling ill, mind reeling, is this my life? Or just a here and now? These feelings are foreign to me. Where is my usual sunny disposition? It's clouded by a storm of chaos. I'm hoping that this storm passes and the sun rises. The start of a brand new day. The calm after the storm.

Fix You This pain stricken disease that hit you. Has mad things difficult but not just for you. Not knowing what to expect is the worst of it. You'll have good days and you'll have days where you'll want to give up. DON'T. You have people there for you that care unconditionally. We'll be your remedy We will fix you. And fuel your strength To carry on.

Look around the sea of people Listen to roaring complaints Of everything they never had And how life is always just that bad A sea of sorrows and never joys Can't learn to breathe within this noise Feel angry but need to bite my tongue My words fall deaf to everyone No one is happy for what they have And we should all be really glad About the roof over our heads And the warmth and comfort of our beds For the jobs and money we still hold And the lessons that still do unfold For the warm embrace of a loving friend And those that help us get ahead For the life we live even when there's doubt And the fact there's much to talk abo

There's more than the words that I say to you Look at the whole picture, see what I do I'm not very good at spelling things out But give me a chance to erase all your doubt The feelings inside I could never explain Don't give up on me, don't leave me to blame I'm trying my best but you see right through me Take a closer look at me and believe You should know that I care, I won't leave you behind Even if I don't say it all of the time Our love is this strong, we won't break apart And I hold you close and dear to my heart Read between the lines, there are silent messages Open up your mind to these life long lessons

Whatever happens is not your fault try and take it with a grain o' salt whether it be good or bad try and go do something rad just play your part and do what you can for all you know, you may make some fans just be yourself because you are great who gives a crap if people hate.

Hurt, anger, bitter, burnt trying to stay well alert bruised, battered, torn and drained not sure if I should here remain Scared, alone, covered in tears don't know where I got this fear nervous, sad, filled with regret can anything make me forget? These things they haunt me, they bring me down I try to scream but there is no sound to release the fear and pain I feel it's a part of life that is so real So break me now over again I'll be quiet and just pretend this is some fantastic game we play that ends with you breaking away Tomorrow may my wounds be healed so I never have to clearly reveal why I said the things I said be